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Wow, times flies, doesn't it? It's already five months since i've became a Taylorian. We would be having our AS exam in October. Suddenly, it felt as if i would be sitting for SPM all over again. And now's already end of May. Gosh, did i prepare at all? Honestly, i am still in the commencement of semester mood. Haha.
Hmm, five months here and i somehow still feel a bit alienated. I mean, i have friends alright, but somehow, they are not like friends from Connaught. It doesn't feel like 5sc1. One incident which i don't understand is, that day, a guy from our class said he would spend the whole class on pizza as the Econs teacher was absent. So, when my clique of friends asked where should we have lunch, i just said pizza, and then she said," what? pizza? we would bump into our class friends, no." i was like, huh? why cant we bump into them? but of course i didnt say it out aloud, i jump feel sad cause i dont understand why they like to differentiate themselves from others in our class. Sometimes i envy Kam Hei cause his class is always having group outings and they are somehow so united, and then i remember my previous class in Connaught, then i feel like i am Hum Soon Lee, which in fact i m acting like him now. Sometimes i just feel like turning around and and just mix around in our class, but, it would be bad right? to betray them like that, (which, i wont.) what if all 8 of them suddenly shut me out completely. Duh, guess i just have to go to school, study, and be home. "Socialising" would have to wait.
Hmm, five months here and i somehow still feel a bit alienated. I mean, i have friends alright, but somehow, they are not like friends from Connaught. It doesn't feel like 5sc1. One incident which i don't understand is, that day, a guy from our class said he would spend the whole class on pizza as the Econs teacher was absent. So, when my clique of friends asked where should we have lunch, i just said pizza, and then she said," what? pizza? we would bump into our class friends, no." i was like, huh? why cant we bump into them? but of course i didnt say it out aloud, i jump feel sad cause i dont understand why they like to differentiate themselves from others in our class. Sometimes i envy Kam Hei cause his class is always having group outings and they are somehow so united, and then i remember my previous class in Connaught, then i feel like i am Hum Soon Lee, which in fact i m acting like him now. Sometimes i just feel like turning around and and just mix around in our class, but, it would be bad right? to betray them like that, (which, i wont.) what if all 8 of them suddenly shut me out completely. Duh, guess i just have to go to school, study, and be home. "Socialising" would have to wait.
