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Just got home from a skills development session at Warwick. It's called finding your voice and it basically teaches you how to control your voice when you do a presentation in front of an audience: volume, pitch, pauses, intonations etc. The tutor, a certified drama and voice trainer, led the training session very well and managed to make us bang head on into our fear, the horrified, embarassed, nervous feeling that we get when walking into a silent room with 20 people staring back at you, judging every single thing you do/ say.
Talked to one of my coursemates on the way home from campus. Realised how many people get on to a certain stage in their internship applications. Not many got an offer in the end, but many progressed somewhat. I have applied to possibly 10 companies, spending more than 1 full day's work on each, using a different strategy each time, trying to figure out what they want. Unfortunately, I have not managed to pass a single stage in a single firm, whilst most people who applied had somehow got somewhere. Even more unfortunately, I have completely no idea what was wrong with my applications. I had friend to proof read them, career advisors to give comments, and made all the necessary changes. Still, replies all start with, "Due to the high volume of excellent applications we received this year, I am sorry to say..."
Went online again to look for more opportunities. Many placements were filled, and even more placements were allocated to British or EEA nationals only. WHY, do i have to been born in MALAYSIA? I have completely no priviledges being a Malaysian (Chinese), be it that I apply for a placement in Malaysia or any where else in the world. This is rubbish.
Heard about the book, the 'secret' again. Maybe if I can use that positive thinking skill to sort of WILL the internships to come my way, I would be able to get somewhere.
After all the effort, I think maybe I should stop looking to get into investment banking. To some of you, this might sound like I am giving up, in fact, it is true if you look at it this way. But maybe, it is just realising the fact that you are just not good enough to do that, and would let it go and open up to look for opportunities elsewhere.
Now.
Where should I head?
Talked to one of my coursemates on the way home from campus. Realised how many people get on to a certain stage in their internship applications. Not many got an offer in the end, but many progressed somewhat. I have applied to possibly 10 companies, spending more than 1 full day's work on each, using a different strategy each time, trying to figure out what they want. Unfortunately, I have not managed to pass a single stage in a single firm, whilst most people who applied had somehow got somewhere. Even more unfortunately, I have completely no idea what was wrong with my applications. I had friend to proof read them, career advisors to give comments, and made all the necessary changes. Still, replies all start with, "Due to the high volume of excellent applications we received this year, I am sorry to say..."
Went online again to look for more opportunities. Many placements were filled, and even more placements were allocated to British or EEA nationals only. WHY, do i have to been born in MALAYSIA? I have completely no priviledges being a Malaysian (Chinese), be it that I apply for a placement in Malaysia or any where else in the world. This is rubbish.
Heard about the book, the 'secret' again. Maybe if I can use that positive thinking skill to sort of WILL the internships to come my way, I would be able to get somewhere.
After all the effort, I think maybe I should stop looking to get into investment banking. To some of you, this might sound like I am giving up, in fact, it is true if you look at it this way. But maybe, it is just realising the fact that you are just not good enough to do that, and would let it go and open up to look for opportunities elsewhere.
Now.
Where should I head?
